Dear Chibi,
I had a dream last night, that for whatever reason, I went back in time- to the first day of Uni. However, I remember everything that has happened to this day, yet everyone else obviously don’t. It was just so so strange seeing everything unfold again- I was doing the same thing too, because I tried to “act” back the way I was back then, not knowing anyone or anything- so I wouldn’t seem “out of place”.
I kept wondering, will everything be the same again? No matter what I do, will my future still remain unchanged? I just went back to the past, but the “present’ still exists somewhere, right? In order to get back to the present, it seems I needed to live in the past again..to live for another 4 years.
I met Marcus again, but soon I realised something was not right. He seemed like the same as he was before, but then I suspected that he also had retained his memory of the present, but- like me, is PRETENDING he hasn’t. There might have been others also with memories, desperately trying to change the past… It was like a game of trying to change history, and trying to keep it the same.
I woke up pretty confused, but it also made me realise that I’m happy with what I have right now, and probably wouldn’t wanna do anything differently in the past.
I’m just glad to be back in the present!